How I wish there was only one reason to think of though and that is, she genuinely wants to be with me. The idea of her finally joining me in the U.S. should thrill me. But the spectre of the other two reasons ruins it all for me. The spectre brings up images – all frightening and disappointing -- of what could be:
• The possibility that she may not join me in the U.S. at all. She has changed her mind so many times before, what makes this time different?
• If she does go through with her plan of joining me in the U.S., can her condo renovation friend be far behind? Be it this or simply just to comply with her green card requirements, is she merely “using” me?
I know. I should just be thankful for the time given me to spend with her, right? After all, that is what true love is about, right?